This Autism Journey

Well, it’s taken me about 10 years to get to this point. The point where I am ready. You see, I didn’t expect my parenting journey to look like this. In fact, up until recently, I really resented it. I resented the lack of joy that I was told a person experiences when they became a parent. For me, it felt like a slog. Often times, I would think “What in the world did I do in a past life to deserve this?” Right now, as I am typing this, I feel like I should just shake it off and get to work. No rest for the weary, you have Autistic children to raise, so get on with it. Well, I did that for 13 years and then it broke me.

It broke me in ways I never knew could exist. It stole my dreams, my joy, my creativity, my ambition, my sleep and my income. You see I had plans for myself and my kids. Great plans! Big plans! Adventurous plans! What I didn’t account for were that my plans had to change. I didn’t like that. I still don’t to a degree but I’m getting better.

I hope you will come back to this page and see an honest look into what it’s like to parent Autistic kids. I hope you can find comfort and compassion in the highs, the lows, the hurts, and the humor. I hope this blog can be a place where when you lack words to describe what it is you are going through, you can read it and feel less alone and better understood.

Take care!